Bitter Pill To Swallow

Eighteenth June, the only day you didn't hit snooze,
Woke up with a smile and left me in blues
I knew something was up when the dinner table
Smelled of cigarettes while you were crafting fables
Think I bet twenty dollars two days back
When he said "don't worry it ain't going to wack"
That's when I knew he knew, even he's reading you
And your friend told me too, now I'm burning your shoes
Burning the jacket that you gave me
Burning the disc we burned but keeping the black Mercedes
I kept some suitcases on the front porch
Fruit-flavoured lipstick and a blowtorch
And as a parting gift pick up pieces of my heart
A picture of Jesus and your fifth grade art
Take all the adjectives you screamed at me, take all of your letters
We'll talk at the bus stop, see you never
Why do you keep showing up everywhere I go
Is it a coincidence or do you follow
For you it's yet another bitter pill to swallow 
But for me it's a choking hazard you and I know
Photo frames at the back of my mind are breaking
Voodoo'd mood cuz suddenly my head is aching
Now I atrophy while the cold is grabbing me
Lost track of my sanity, these thoughts are almost family
It was supposed to be me and you till the end of time
But you stopped the pendulum didn't know introversion was a crime
Guess you're going through your life's journey with someone else
Guess it won't be me taking you through heavens and hells
And the penance I dealt means I need medical help
Just like severing hands, that's how the severance felt
Glass shattered in the living room into a million parts
I go to pick them up - but it's my heart
Dramatically fall to the floor and cut my knees
And my shoulder twitches as I feel a breeze
Something's warm and welcoming, safe yet unsettling
I have to give in although I know it's meddling
Why do you keep showing up everywhere I go
Is it a coincidence or do you follow
For you it's yet another bitter pill to swallow 
But for me it's a choking hazard you and I know
ramblings :)