Demons & Depression (feat. yungzin)

Cause the blessings without lessons
Are just exes that I'm texting
Can't be patient while I'm stressing
So at night I'm laying restless
Put a rock up on my necklace
Wish I had my God's perspective
Only thing that got me by my neck
My demons and depression
I gotta stop tripping off impressions
I be acting reckless
Can't heal up while I'm flexing
I know peace is just a luxury
Opening up is really tough for me
They rode with me a year ago but now they got no love for me
They done had enough of me
Now dream girls open up for me
But my spirit on a growth-spurt, this all happened so abrupt for me
My trauma catching up to me
My past beyond just ugly
Sure now I can run a beat
In real-time can't pick up my feet
Need a climax just to feel complete
I cannot compete with all of these small minds telling me I can have a seat
Have to be from my past to see more than what just my pastor see
They talking loud that's blasphemy
Got nobody that can blast for me
I don't have to brag to speak
Got a Father past my dad to seek
Push farther til my back deceased
I can't package these scars
Large hearts looking for those last few beats
Got defensive fam breaking cycles, hoping we can tackle these
Things that hold us down with these shackles please
Know that I'm in hell
Inhale but I got asthma, breathe
Cause the blessings without lessons
Are just exes that I'm texting
Can't be patient while I'm stressing
So at night I'm laying restless
Put a rock up on my necklace
Wish I had my God's perspective
Only thing that got me by my neck
My demons and depression
I gotta stop tripping off impressions
I be acting reckless
Can't heal up while I'm flexing
I don't know what you want from me
And I can't do this easily
But now I gotta step back and let you figure this shit out
Can you do that for me
In the morning we can talk about it
Yeah I want you back cause l'd be lost without you
Never doubt you
I still wait for you
Cause I'm fighting demons and depression
Got me reckless and I'm waiting for you
I'm still waiting for you
Demons and depression
Imma hold my own through the wreckage
It's all on me, He ain't around