Abandoned

You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned
I know you can't understand it
You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned
Abandoned
Getaway, you're suffocating my space
Go to your room and stay locked for a couple days
You mad but didn't you say you can't wait till I leave
I guess you'll finally be at peace when you're not with me
But that's fine I don't wanna be
With someone who makes me feel as if I did some type of thing
To deserve this, do I look too much like him
Cuz every time I look at you there's anger hovering
Look how fucked up this is
You tell me you will listen then interrupt with excuses
Just sit and hear me for once, matter fact Imma do it for us
Three out of six and you favored the three that was before us
You even called em up and when you looked toward us
You forced us to give you space, might as well have abortus
I don't care if you don't see me for days
So when I say what I say don't wonder why
Just know I was in pain
Yes I love you but I have no clue
How to move on cuz I always come back to
Memories that lack you, perhaps we were a distraction but I get it
We we're the last two
My feels are mixed up, but I feel its right to have this boundary between us
I don't need you to know much
Cuz everyone else will know and have their opinion
Then give advice as if they will devote much
You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned
I know you can't understand it
You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned
Abandoned
It's pretty crazy how she'll let herself be controlled
For a relationship with her mom she don't even know
And when it backfires she'll beat herself cuz she don't know
That she won't give a Fuck so might as well leave the home
That stupid bitch don't understand she's desperate for her love
And she'll do anything to gain it, what a stupid fuck
I envy those whose mothers are by their side showing love
Support and all of the above for their babies love
Not throwing in our face the nine months they've held us
For what to hold it against us like they horror-struck?
It sucks knowing she's controlled so she'll give up
Cuz in the future she's under control from someone
That's why it's hard to trust em, can't even trust the homies
Maybe one day they'll turn on me like they did Capicchioni
Fuck my whole mind up, and leave me with trust issues
Dirty tissues, mom issues, and back to being lonely
I try not to think about it too much, but when I think of her
All I think about all of the trust my mom lost
Now my dad gained most of the love I had for her
Cuz she neglected me as a pug
A young buck, grown up and I've made up my mind
I'm wonder if she'll leave her knowing it waisted time
Brainwashed, she needs her drain washed to be free of mind
Abandoned in every area, but she won't keep that in mind
You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned
I know you can't understand it
You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned
Abandoned
There's no conclusion to the fights we have
No solutions for the nights to pass
Never knew my bitterness has sunken thru
Maybe cuz you've been wringing me like a rag
While trying to drain out all the memories that are dad's
If you hear this and you block me like you did black sheep
Imma be fine maybe better if the questions asked
I know you'll be sad and turn everyone against me
But I'll be glad till the pass comes to catch my ass
You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned