Dying Star

I wear 1000 scars
Cover them up so you don't see behind the mask
My world's a dying star
Falling for you is bearing me in smoke and ash
In smoke and ash
I always hoped that I would be someone when I grew up
A light in the tunnel but I never showed up
Never shined on anyone
I just threw up
Cause this how you feel when depression got you in the air choked up
Feeling like I'm about to explode
But I'ma hold that till It happens and that's what I engulf
I indulged in my happiness
As much as I could until it was taken from me
At least that's what I was told
I was informed
That I wasn't controlled
I hoped that it wasn't me making the strongholds
I'm tryna remold what I've lost, respect for my soul
Behold this is the world where I unfold
The stories of a child seeing their dad suffer from their suffering
But had peace that he wasn't gonna doubt their goals and dreams
But having a mother that never inspired a thing
And wasn't interested in what they wanted to be
I wear 1000 scars
Cover them up so you don't see behind the mask
My world's a dying star
Falling for you is bearing me in smoke and ash
In smoke and ash
It's been days since I had proper sleep
I've been dazed cuz I'm in a calmer sea
The silence before the scream
The sirens of tsunami
And drowning isn't a thing
When it comes down to my dreams
But then it woke me up and made me realize
I had to tell her cuz something happened inside
Love been taking my eyes
I can't see when I cry
My chest is hurting with pride
Can't hide no more cuz I'll die
With humanity, it's normal to have a fantasy
A mixture of lust with some morality
And you're a freak
If you don't think sexually
And you sound like a virgin if you're disgusted with brutality
Come back to me, innocent mind, I will make sure I'm clean
If I wasn't lying, trying to breathe perfection at least a couple more times
But I need correction since I keep wasting time God
I wear 1000 scars
Cover them up so you don't see behind the mask
My world's a dying star
Falling for you is bearing me in smoke and ash
In smoke and ash
Trying to laugh threw the pain
Picking at my scabs, hoping I can rip the chains
I can never heal until I bend the metal that's in my veins
It left me drained to the point I can't remember my name
Throw it into the flames
And never speak about it cause it comes out profane
I gotta tweak the body to hold what it sustains
Knife wounds from Michel Myers
They told me Halloween ain't a game
Now I gotta play it fake
Like nothings wrong, so people can't assume the same
He goes to parties to drink, then fuck and that's their aim
To shoot me down then judge what they can't see
But they don't know what I'm going through
I got a lot of things to say if I was next to you
But I would rather say it hear cuz it's fluent and you
Would cut me off, so typical
here is where I let it all flow
I wear 1000 scars
Cover them up so you don't see behind the mask
My world's a dying star
Falling for you is bearing me in smoke and ash
In smoke and ash