Hoping

I can only see myself alone
With God sitting on His throne
Praying He don't leave me cold
I'm hoping I don't end up all alone
But I think my hope is wrong
Oh God just bring me home
I can only think and try to hope for the best
I had clinked with a glass but we shattered breaking our chests
Coping with rapping again but it only suppressed
All the feelings I had for this glass cup what a ten
I only relapsed because I confessed what I missed
Seeing this glass almost empty made me not wanna exist
But the drink that I had showed me the state I was in
I only faked the fact that the taste I tasted wasn't it
I had embraced it but it drained all the patients I gave it
Showed me how bitter I was fell over without even thinking
Unforgiveness took place and I had no choice but to cave in
Cuz hearing how it shattered raised my emotions couldn't take it
Was only able to let it go
With tears and the faces I gave
Had a metronome and it ticked without steady and patience
I can only drink the amount I gave it
My heels can only click so much till I break it
I know you won't thank me
I can only see myself alone
With God sitting on His throne
Praying He don't leave me cold
I'm hoping I don't end up all alone
But I think my hope is wrong
Oh God just bring me home
I never knew how much pieces would stay for the best
The force on the clink made it shatter having glass in my chest
Finding a replica but it'll never suppress
All the blood that I bleed for that glass cup what a ten
The best part was the wine that it came with for me to vent
I don't know if another glass can handle my grip
But it can't cuz every glass I held won't commit
To contain all the pressure I have on the cup when I give
So I left and thought about asking Jesus for forgiveness
But I thought He won't cuz I go back to my sining
And He really did but I kept spilling it's beverages that it came with
Cuz the drinks that it brought weren't vivid
Can't pretend I couldn't taste every drink I had with it
Had a plan to try and fix every piece that broke in me
But I went to Jesus cuz I couldn't remove the glass that was in me
Now He's taking them out with precision
Had no gas now I'm driven
I can only see myself alone
With God sitting on His throne
Praying He don't leave me cold
I'm hoping I don't end up all alone
But I think my hope is wrong
Oh God just bring me home