Neutralize

Oh the way I feel is the way I feel about it
You have neutralized the way I feel and the way I feel about it
Oh I've made up my mind

A little kid growing up around hatred, felling like no one showed'em love
Always waited for someone to call'em up but when they called it wasn't for us
Feels like he faded out of their minds, he tried to push through but it was barricaded with lies
He didn't care about his family and they wonder why, maybe cus he felt abandoned and traumatized
And now they wonder why he's so attached to his father cus he was the only one who latched
No one else gave him motivation like how he did, no other brother in his life to teach him how to act
Got a backpack filled with fear that he carried with him
Had a snapback to hide the tears cus no one gave a shit and
Tried to hide the pain that's tryna come out within him, gotta say it's a miracle it never killed him.

Oh the way I feel is the way I feel about it
You have neutralized the way I feel and the way I feel about it
Oh I've made up my mind

Now he's grown up and see's better, finna show her the shoulder and his effort
To stay sober an not be controlled ever, they are over, if she tries to say sorry let her
All the times all the lies made sense never cus what he saw with his eyes never made it better
And when he didn't believe it she gave him a lecture
About how she's the victim cus she wouldn't dare to tell'em
That she's wrong and how it's all her fault, won't accept the past and act like she did nothing wrong
Won't accept the fact that she let'em sleep in a tub
In an abandoned building not able to see his son's for like 3 months
Barely had a wink of sleep, thinking about his kids and if they had something to eat
Now he's wondering what kind of man they have to see
Child support being spent on everything else except necessities and keeping'em healthy

Oh the way I feel is the way I feel about it
You have neutralized the way I feel and the way I feel about it
Oh I've made up my mind