Sindy
Your tryna get me high but I won't
Told me too much lies so I know
If your just a disguise or my ghost
Sindy has me blind
Here am I gonna go
It started when I was a kid
Fighting her with my mind
I still live with her in my head
I bet you don't get it
How much trouble I'm in
I struggle within to not let her win
But what am I talking bout
She's been living inside my home ever since I let her in
She swears she loves it when I hit her back on her chin
When she hits me first knowing I'll give in
I'm tryna commit a death but listen Sindy
I'm tired of you stealing my breath
Saying that's how you'll leave me
Breathless I gave you my necklace I will choke you with it
And I'll wear it just to remember that I did it and I bet you're with it
It's fun though isn't it well it isn't
I ain't so timid now cuz I'm speaking from my feelings but that's where you hit me
Your tryna get me high but I won't
Told me too much lies so I know
If your just a disguise or my ghost
Sindy has me blind
Here am I gonna go
An addict obsessed
You can guess how it all happened
She's taunting my head again ever since I was ten or eleven
And at the time I liked it but now it's like I live it
How do I end this without ending my existence
I fight with her to leave everyday to the point I'm hitting her
You won't understand how a man is with his addiction
Sometimes I don't know why I got in this position
And let it get this far but of course I'm only human
It gets too humid
Stupid thinking I won't get through it
The arrow Cupid shot missed now I'm getting abusive
I'm the bad guy but you were the one who started accusing
But it's true when you sleep I try to burn the house down with us in it
Your tryna get me high but I won't
Told me too much lies so I know
If your just a disguise or my ghost
Sindy has me blind
Here am I gonna go
You on a role
You check me up when my pawns are low
Tryna get my queen but she keeps telling me it's her so
Stop overthinking it ain't someone else you ain't mine hoe
And if I leave she'll get one of her knights to slice my throat
She's the definition of my sickness
I ain't the only witness but I've witnessed other peoples visions
Are different they think she's the victim cuz of all the bruises I've given
But she has me locked in the trenches
Getting ready to take my ambitions
And set em on fire with me in it
It might sound twisted so abusive ain't it
Doesn't need assistance don't come thru to defend her actions
Wicked vivid vision prison has given limits to deliver forgiveness
Sitting at this ledge remembering when we've met
Wish I could go back and tell him to not let her in
Don't open the door stupid but of course I'm just a kid
Call the feds cus she's about to rape my innocence
Danger is imminent till it happened now I'm vigilante
I had her but my ignorance caused me to let her live
Your tryna get me high but I won't
Told me too much lies so I know
If your just a disguise or my ghost
Sindy has me blind
Here am I gonna go