Laughing (1st Take)

I was a child and I was so bitter, I didn't know why I was so much bigger than all the kids laughing at me
So I laughed too and I tied all their shoes to get them to like me
I acted like you to see how it felt to be mean to someone else
Now I couldn't sing and I couldn't dance, I couldn't be hopeful, but if I had the chance I'd joke to get them to laugh with me

And I'm so much older and god how I've grown, I was warmer before, I didn't know I could be so cold
Now nobody's laughing
I wished for cold hands and I wished for cold toes, I wished for a slim face and a button nose and for my ribs to show
I would be so happy, I would be laughing

I would go out to stores and look in the windows, people would hold doors, I'd smile and show my teeth
They'd smile back at me
I would turn heads and people would glance, they'd say you're pretty and if I had the chance I'd say thank you
And so are you