lol i looked up a brockhampton type beat

Live a double life
In one I paint a picture, other I pay the price
Friends looking after me like "What you doin' tonight?"
I just give 'em empty words, look for a J and a light

Nah

Some days I wonder why I should give a damn
Then I pick myself up remind me I'm the man
Then she sent me pictures, not part of no plan
But she like to keep it freaky I'm her only fans

Nah

She say she being honest
If I'm being honest I don't think she'd keep the promise
And if we're being honest, nah we ain't talkin' nonsense
How you looking hella acute while we smoking that chronic?

Ha

Shit, I 'unno
Maybe all we can hope for in life is not to spend it alone
Find somebody else to spend it who spends it alone
Who I can speak to lightly when she pick up the phone

Cause when the final curtain close
Is this a dual production or a one man show?
What kinda influence will I leave? I 'unno
Just hope my funeral's sold out and they fill the overflow

Prob'ly won't
Yeah I know that
But I be down here changing worlds like a glove snap
See her take a pic she print it out like a kodak
And she better delete that shit before I see her post that

But she post that
Yeah she post that
And I be falling victim to her pitch just like a voice crack
Bitches acting shy they sleeping on me like a coy nap
So I'm about to finish with this shit I'm talkin no cap