Indurated Juvenescence

Mind full of existential dread
Intrusive thoughts linger in my head

Scuff on the edge
I'm bound to slip
Cinch me in chains
Lambaste me with your whip

Time not well spent
Thou can't repent
Feign culture shock
Can't turn back the clock

And with every single passing second
I die - fall apart inside
Staring at the clock
My brain goes into shock

What difference does it make?
This pain - why would one fake?
Head chock full of slop
No switch to make it stop

Fingers on the gun, there's no place to run
Fading deeper for no fucking reason

Mind can't compute
Fed up with life's bullshit
Hope destitute

I try to get ahead
These efforts are fruitless
At war with my head

Take. Away. My. Pain.
Set. My. Mind. Free.

Self hatred really makes no sense to me
But in my life, I can't seem to budge

Self-loathing really makes no sense to me
Truth be told, nothing truly does

Living to sin - forced to live foul
All the drugs in the world won't help your sweet child
Face of calloused youth, Too far gone to arise
And left stuck in the dirt in a world I despise

I've had enough of these lies