Want To Be Happy

Just wanna be happy
Just wanna be happy
Sunny outside but it's raining inside
I don't smoke weed but my brain is fried
Driving in a 60 but I'm doing 95
Speeding passed the present will leave gifts way behind
Been living off pride which is the devil
Learned that from J Cole he keep my head mellow
My heart squished like Jell-O it stopped but showing yellow
If you plan on leaving please don't tell me hello
When I need to smile I just go to a track
I'm not talking running laps I'm talking learning from my past
I can't have no overlaps or I start to relapse
I can't take no steps back I'm not that same quarterback (Yea yea)
So many feelings
I can't control them (Yea yea)
Just wanna be happy
Just wanna be happy
Been so long since I had a real smile
These hurt feelings got me low on my vitals
Gotta cold heart so in front I put cryo
I shed more tears than the river called the Nile
Been walked on like Michael I need better days
Asked am I alright like this my normal face
In a sad place I feel like a waste
On my sunny days I still see the gray
I'm tryna change the forecast I always been put last
I been had covid I hide feelings under happy masks
If my feelings feel like tasks
Don't hold me and say we'll last
I rather be left alone cause at the end that how we pass
Just wanna be happy
Just wanna be happy
Why can't I be happy
Happy
Happy
Happy
Just wanna be
Just wanna be happy
Just wanna be
Just wanna be happy