ALL I AM

I had to step back to see myself
Walking through the fire, on the wire like Stringer Bell
Tried and I failed, I can't lie, I'm not coping well But my pride is a disease, I'm too stubborn
To ask for help
And God, how long is this season
I'm sorry for the times I said I'm sorry but I didn't mean it
My prayers hitting the ceiling, doing God's works got me fighting some demons
Bobbing and weaving intrusive thoughts, getting the silent treatment
I'm still learning what it is to be a man
Never been the type to stunt on the Gram
But I'll still send a helping hand
Conversations with my dad
And everything he's not, makes me everything I am
Stuck in your ways you get trapped
Conversations with Shaq
He told me stick to the raps, I said I'm trying but you know how it gets
Make your bed, you lie in it
Don't get lazy or you die in it
Procrastinator or perfectionist
Either way I'm still making excuses
All these bangers on my MacBook
I'm dying to release it but I'm holding in and I'm keeping it
All this pain, I'm trying to find the root of it
No matter the case, the fans still want new music
I haven't jogged by the river in ages
Hope it wasn't one of my phases
Those jogs got me on a playlist
Hitting my targets, God's my aim assist
Trying to leave this world with everyone I came with
But I get it, my heart has been hardened on so many occasions
If you don't want those words then how you gonna take it
Telling my mum, take the leap of faith and be the bravest
Still purple raining, maintaining, dipping into my savings
Doing God's will through Christ, cause if it was my self then it would be draining
When they ask what I'm saying, I'm saying
Damn, here we go again
The devil's trying hard just to make his way in
But Christ set me free and he died for my sins
So everything I am is all cause of him
Damn, here we go again
The devil's trying hard just to make his way in
But Christ set me free and he died for my sins
So Everything I am is all cause of him
I'll never be laid back like this beat was
I'm only laid back through God
All this sin beneath, of course I need to detox
Those conversations with God are needed
The devil trying to cause bodily harm that's grievous
Finish using a rope like Ray Mysterious
Some people listen to demons when they're stuck in their feelings
Young bull, I wish I listened to my seniors
Cause Shaq gave me advice, Jay gave me advice
Manga gave me advice
Still I was in the middle of the field like Rice
These jack boys plotting on my demise
Covered then but I didn't see at the time
Touching notes like Stevie had me blind
I wish I had the vision to see like Scotty
That when they tried to get me, they never got me
Cause God's got me
Never left me even as a roamer like Totty
So when I take in your aroma, blessings fall on my right hand like Koffee
I can't let my left hand know what my right hand does
I used to tell my right hand everything it left me stuck in the mud
With my hands out, so Lord when I ask, I'm still learning to adjust
Dropping pride is a must thinking I can do it on my ones but I can't
Here from the start and you know my stance
Hear the pain in my laugh and the scars on my heart
These praying hands filled with callus
I've been carrying baggage, been tired and feel shattered
24 hours to write these bangers, teach me to be what I'm man is
When these thoughts are gathered, I accept the challenge
I stand straight, writing bars till my hand aches
Rhyming these heartaches, praying my heart stays pure despite my heartbreak
When there's dark days, there will be light days
I can say Christ saves and makes me
Everything I am,
Damn, here we go again
The devil's trying hard just to make his way in
But Christ set me free and he died for my sins so
Everything I am is all cos of Him
Damn, here we go again
The devil's trying hard just to make his way in
But Christ set me free and he died for my sins so
Everything I am is all cos of Him