Tired of Singing the Blues

You know, sometimes I think God is playing
A little game with me
Looking down from Heaven, laughing
And trying to see how much I can take
Because the way things go, it's like a joke
Nobody's had more shots at the
Moon and missed than me

It's like I got my life stuck
Stuck on rewind
Trying to make something of myself
Life's got something else in mind
I'm fighting a losing game and
I'm biding my time
You won't be my man, do I understand? No
Stop i don't want to hear another
Word about your why nots
I bought your bullshit all before
Now you trying to sell me more, babe

Man who makes a beast out of
Himself got nothing to lose
Sold my soul long ago, nothing left to choose
I'm tired, tired of singing the blues
I'm tired

I'm walking down the streets
You wouldn't know what I was thinking
It's just another white girl day, hey
Ribbons in my hair and I am sinking down
A double life
A sordid past and I am drinking now
I want to be bad, you say
You were glad to see me, shut up
I don't want to know another thing
You think you know about me
I'm not who you think I am
Smiling but I ain't happy

Man who makes a beast out of
Himself got nothing to lose
Sold my soul long ago, nothing left to choose
I'm tired, tired of singing the blues
I'm tired

Oh, I'm so far gone
I can't turn off my mind
It's like a ticking time bomb
Trying to kill me from inside
Haunting day and night
Is there no remedy for memory?

I've felt this way before
I've known the depths of utter desperation
My boyfriend says I'm like an old movie star
With loneliness as my occupation
I know that he's right but
I don't care tonight
I want to be bad, I want to be bad
I can't stop
I keep running around the same town
Knocking you down, I'm fucked
How can I get out when there's
Nowhere to go for miles around?

A man who makes a beast out
Of himself got nothing to lose
Sold my soul long ago, nothing left to choose
I'm tired, tired of singing the blues
I'm tired