If He Had Loved Me

I'm trying to let you love me
But the baggage makes it hard
My history seems too heavy
I overthink and I fall apart
I keep hoping that I'm healing
Will you help me be whole again?
But I wish that you could see who I was
Before I ever let him in

I'm usually not the type to get nervous, when you don't pick up
And every time you say that I'm pretty, I'll brush it off
We were drinking at a party when you kissed me and I pulled away
'Cause I didn't think it mattered
I wouldn't be here crying, assuming the worst again
And it wouldn't make me nervous to see you go out with friends
And I would've seen it coming, you calling just to check in
And we wouldn't have these issues
If he had loved me the way that you do
(If he had loved me, if he had loved me, oh)
He made me feel unworthy
I couldn't trust him at all
There's no need for your apologizes
'Cause it was never your fault
You came at the right time
On a Seattle Friday night
You held me 'til I realized
You're nothing like the last guy

I'm usually not the type to get nervous, when you don't pick up (when you don't pick up)
And every time you say that I'm pretty, I'll brush it off (I'll brush it off)
We were drinking at a party when you kissed me and I pulled away (pulled away)
'Cause I didn't think it mattered (oh, how it mattered)
I wouldn't be here crying, assuming the worst again
And it wouldn't make me nervous to see you go out with friends (go out with friends)
And I would've seen it coming, you calling just to check in (just to check in)
And we wouldn't have these issues
If he had loved me the way that you do
(If he had loved me, if he had loved me, oh)
If he had loved me the way that you do
(If he had loved me, if he had loved me, oh)
If he had loved me the way that you do