Shades Of Anxiety
[Chorus:]
Soul sufferin, cluthin' for the light
Redeemin' myself, is constantly denied
With each descison, there's always a standstill
A nonstop motion, goin' up a steep hill
Can't reach the top, feels like its unreachable
Faded signs, shit, still unreadable
Tryin out new paths, while battlin' my shades of anxiety
The lack of trust, is what constantly haunts me
[Verse 1:]
Its hard to fathom, rather stay in the dark
Fightin' my demons, we can't break apart
Niggas bein' shot, R.I.P. to Pop Smoke
Didn't know him, but 50, vibed with what he spoke
I have a dream involvin' music, but the lack of supportiveness
Doesn't matter to me, just fuck forgiveness
Gotta stand tall, focus on what I want
The growin haters, says this is all for naught
I never smoked, I'm already high
High on determination, that pollutes the sky
But my uneasiness, just takes control
The lighter in my hand, lights up the load
[Chorus:]
Soul sufferin, cluthin' for the light
Redeemin' myself, is constantly denied
With each descison, there's always a standstill
A nonstop motion, goin' up a steep hill
Can't reach the top, feels like its unreachable
Faded signs, shit, still unreadable
Tryin out new paths, while battlin' my shades of anxiety
The lack of trust, is what constantly haunts me
[Verse 2:]
Could die anytime, before my life can even begin
The ridin' expectations, A trojan nigga ascends
Forward and back, and then put in reverse
With every story, my pain speaks in every verse
I may not have been there, but the bullets ring out
When my nigga told me the word, I had not doubt
That I would sneak out, and just party my ass off
Probably be dead, wouldn't even been able to walk it off
Sex and the future, is always on my mind
Can't think straight, tryna keep myself in line
Worrin' about, the one I love, a facinated creature
She deserves a nigga that knows how to treat her
[Chorus:]
Soul sufferin, cluthin' for the light
Redeemin' myself, is constantly denied
With each descison, there's always a standstill
A nonstop motion, goin' up a steep hill
Can't reach the top, feels like its unreachable
Faded signs, shit, still unreadable
Tryin out new paths, while battlin' my shades of anxiety
The lack of trust, is what constantly haunts me