When The First Love Ends

My first kiss happened while I cried, knowing no matter how hard I tried
It was just like we were part of a TV show
The moment I forgot you had to go was exactly when the whistle chose to blow

The chilly winter breeze hits my face, as cold as always
Blinking twice, I stop and sigh into my hands the hundredth time
The city’s all aglow with festive lights
As if it was set up magically - the leafless trees and everything was sparkling

Why couldn’t I go up and tell you
Everything I felt? I hid them deep down inside
I’ve made my choice - there’s no turning back
As the screen turns black, you’re not getting closer
I just can’t believe it’s over

Thank you, but I’ll say goodbye now
This wasn’t going to work anyhow
Even if I feel my chest ache with every breath that I take
So really

Thank you, but it’s time for goodbyes
I promised myself I wouldn’t cry
But as the snow continued falling over me
I felt my determination leave
And like you, here, it slowly disappeared

On the way to where we’re going to meet, I see a couple
Having fun, and pointing up: Hey, look! It’s finally snowing, love!
Why, oh why? I sigh the thousandth time - stay here by my side
I walked ahead, your gift in hand - a home-made muffler, shining red

How could I ever hand it over?
Distracted by your smile - it hangs on my shoulders
When you fade away from my memories, I will be okay, you don’t have to worry
Oh why can’t I just admit that

Thank you, but I’ll say goodbye now
I knew it’d end up like this somehow
But even if I could go back and do this all over again
I’d do it

Thank you, but it’s time for goodbyes
I'm trembling now and breaking inside
The train is nearing now; soon you will go away
As the seconds slowly tick away, I can’t believe--
I won’t accept it!

Can you take my hand?
Look into my eyes, don’t you understand?
Come here, hold on, and you’ll know why
I, I won’t accept the truth, why I won’t say goodbye

Guess it’s time to go
One look at you, I already know
Saying how you really felt wasn’t always easy for you
So would you
Let go of this hand that’s holding mine?
I'm really glad I met you
I’ll always love you

Thank you, but don’t say goodbye now
I gotta tell you this all somehow
Gathering every single last drop of courage I have
You know, I-
Our lips colliding, the seconds slowing, this distance shrinking down to nothing
And if I cried now, would you kiss the tears away?
Since there’s nothing really left to say
Just hold me tight and never let me go

Around this time next year I wonder where we’ll be?
Even if you don’t remember me
I hope you’ll always be smiling and happy