Losing My Cool
Baby, you didn't think that I'd be clueless?
'Cause I don't know who you think you foolin'
(I don't think you're foolin' me)
Is this is real love?
'Cause I'm tryin', but I can't lie (don't never think of foolin' me)
I'm losin' my cool (losin' my cool)
I'm losin' my cool
Yeah, yeah, yeah
'Cause I'm tryin', but I can't lie (turn it up a little bit)
I'm losin' my cool
I'm losin' my cool
Uh, yeah
Life of a youngin'
Tryna balance my pain became my struggle
I was already deep off in my thoughts and feelin' funny
How the ones that I love the most just can't keep it a hunnid?
I never thought I'd get this far, I used to doubt myself
God dealt me this hand, I used the out myself
Breakin' in houses when I was younger, I was wild myself
They told me ten at fourteen, I went and found myself
In my cell writin' raps often thinkin' 'bout Deyjah
Before she died, I told her my dreams and my aspirations (yeah)
I used to cry just thinkin' 'bout all the shit she was facin'
I know she smilin' lookin' down 'cause I finally done made it (I finally made it)
I love my lil' brother, he feel like big brother be trippin' (big brother be trippin')
That shit just make me so damn mad that he don't fuckin' listen (he don't listen, oh)
And my big brother really gifted, but he really trippin' (he trippin', oh)
He tell me heal me, his addiction ain't none of my business (none of my business, no)
In his brain, he rock star livin' (yeah)
Yeah, and we was raised the same, but we way different
Either way, and if you right or wrong, forever with you (forever with you, dawg)
It's safe to say I changed the game, I made it out the trenches (yeah)
Later I would come to find that was just the beginnin'
I still gotta cross all these oceans and mountains and rivers
Life of a rapper got me on the edge, I keep my pistol
Gotta watch my back 'cause I don't trust these hoes or trust these niggas
Tell me, who can you trust when people so deceivin'? (Yeah)
Don't want no love 'cause she gon' leave and come back when she need me
She lookin' dead in my eyes, lyin' like a demon
How you slap the hand that had fed you, bite the hand that feed you? (Yeah, yeah)
I don't get it neither, yeah, yeah
I don't get it neither
My family don't see Nuni, they see Rod the Wave (Rod the Wave, yeah)
So mentally and physically, I stay far away (far away, yeah)
Yeah
Listen, I
I regret sayin' I want 'em dead for switchin' sides
That night he died, I couldn't cry although I tried, uh
I can't lie, yeah
I'm losin', losin' my cool
I lose my cool sometimes, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I lose my cool, I lose my cool sometimes, yeah
Crazy life for the youngin'
Tryna battle my pain became my struggle
They don't ask me how I be feelin', just askin' for money
Wonder why all the people I love can't keep it a hunnid? Yeah
I don't want you to ever think you foolin'
Don't ever think you foolin' me
Need real love, mm-mm-mm
Yeah, yeah
I lose my cool, I lose my cool sometimes