Clarity

Is it the sun?
Is it the skies?
Look at me fly
Look at me fly
Is it the clouds?
Is it the days?
I can't decide
Could be a sign

I'm coming to learn I'm not defined by situations
We are just defined by how we deal with 'em
Changed myself, so I could be with him
Cuz I can't chain myself if I'mma be given
All of this
Thoughts emit revolver in the noggin
As a small shot at a perfect way of solving this
I'd never do it tho
I let songs express for me what I swallowed in
I am the culprit
No, don't wanna be awake but I don't wanna go to sleep
I don't wanna be away but if I stay I'm growing weak
I don't wanna feel astray and I don't wanna smoke no weed
But I gotta treat it in my brain before the whole can grow too deep
I don't sleep, I just rest from the numbing
In my own social life, the fact is I'm stunting
I enrolled into this fight, I didn't know what was coming for me
I soar at the sky, but every time I look up I'm falling

Is it the sun?
Is it the skies?
Look at me fly
Look at me fly
Is it the clouds?
Is it the dates?
I can't decide
Could be a sign

I been feeling so amazing
Wait, I'm dealing with a maze
And too many imaginations
Gotta say that it's all good
Peeling off the faces
Then I'm drifting off in days that I should really pay attention
Should I mention how my thoughts move?
Damned and I'm thoughtful
Can't focus on my school now cuz'
I'm crazy and lost you
I just focus on my new sound
In this route I'm in
Feel like I'm in a spider net and I don't know where the router is
Brain blow loud as shit, rain boast sour shit
It's why I eye at the sun when I stay home, how to live
How to live?
That's what I been trynna figure out
Cuz' I know what it's like to survive a life I can actually live without
Now I'm searching for a purpose and I think I found the niche
But I need to make my legacy something that I'm proud to give

Is it the sun?
Is it the skies?
Look at me fly
Look at me fly
Is it the clouds?
Is it the dates?
I can't decide
Could be a sign

I'm making peace with death, is this maturity or depression?
Think it's a bit of both and I'm unsure of where I'm blessed on
I got a little hope, convinced myself that I'm the next up
Fake it till you make it, the lies put weight from my chest up
I'm not depressed tho, and if I am, I'm in denial
I'm such a mess tho, I call for chances then I dial
If life hits me then at least I let it get to me in style
By all means bottle, that's why I look for clarity in a vial
Head spinning like a vinyl I be idle with the pain
It's hard to be an idol when the trial's in your brain
Hard to see it final if you idolize the pain
It's why I keep my gifts present and go hide the lies away
I just wanna live with myself and the decisions I've chosen
Now I do trust myself near others, just not with my emotions
Lack of sleep and compulsions makes me think if my soul damned
Or maybe I blame everything on that when I should own them

Is it the sun?
Is it the skies?
Look at me fly
Look at me fly
Is it the clouds?
Is it the dates?
I can't decide
Could be a sign