Overthinker

Vending machine, put a quarter in
They calling my name but I'm not in here (Brain)
I'm overthinking, I always am
Cuz of my trauma I don't forget (Brian!)
Wait
I feel a touch on my shoulder
I turn to the left and the principal's here
He says I'm late to my class
I hang out too much with my girl
But she ain't even here
I been 5 minutes trynna choose between a daim and a twix
I drifted again, I tend to do that a lot
I apologise on my way to the gym
After school, I meet my girl, she sweet and curvy
She my safe zone, need no worry
Silent cellphone, time luxurious
Then I get home and start thinking about that thing she said
Likes brown hair but when she was single she had a thing for reds
Over-analyzing like an infrared
I get instant scared, cuz mine is brown
Wait, she hasn't texted yet but I see on Insta "read"
Mind in doubt, is she mad?
I ask her about it, she answers back, "why would I?"
I say "you haven't texted"
She says she been busy, she cooking her dinner
She wanted to wait 'till when she could give me attention
I ask "are you sure that's all?"
I'm insecure cuz of thoughts that were born in my head
And I let 'em control me
Made her think I don't trust her
She says she in bed and she'll text in the morning, fuck

Now I'm fucking anxious, it's my own fucking fault
Wish there was one way to stop this
Lock my own thoughts in a vault
But my own way of thinking is what makes me more intelligent
Don't wanna lose that
How do I separate it from this hell I'm in?

New day, sinking
Two brains... thinking
At least that's what it feels like on my way to school meeting
It's at 8, in 2 minutes
And I'm still way off the premise
I get there late and they give me looks
Like they shading my image, fuck

The seats next to my girl are taken by Logan and Nathan
I go to my mates in deep thinking 'bout how wrong she been lately
Why she ain't save a seat for me? I get openly angry
Then she texts "is something wrong?", she's been worrying lately
I'm tripping

Days pass, in the class, taking the final test, I'm done
I ain't study shit, I swear, I don't understand the stuff
I try remembering answers, but my brain wanders off
Somehow I spend 2 minutes thinking how Twist should write his new song

I leave, text my girl, I'm sorry, overthinking's hell
I'm trying to get better but I know that I'mma need help
Can't do this alone but I want my mental health
Now can you just explain to me, tho
Why you didn't save that seat as well?

She calls me, I go and pick up
She says she been thinking bout us
I say me too, it's driving me nuts
She says she's sorry
She wants to break up
It's too much for her to handle, leaves me like "what the fuck?"
She's "tired of my bullshit"
Man, I'm crying on the phone
She just broke my heart and I still feel like it's my fault
I guess my thoughts attracting what I get all along
From now on I'm alone, man that girl was my home

Weeks pass now, failed the class, I have to go back now
Trichotillomania, I think I'mma lash out
I can't even sleep cuz I think about death
And I'm backed out by my thoughts (Brian)
I can't even stay in the moment at the park now!

Brian!
H-hey, Mike, sorry, what?
Bro, you gotta snap out of it, man
It's hard bro...

I know things been hard
But life goes on, you know?

Look
I don't really know what more to say
But I'mma call Twist

Yo, hey

Hey, Brian's been feeling down, man
You know all he's been through recently
He says he overthinks
Can you help him?

AHF... yeah

It's fucked up that people like this, even more, that people like this
Brian always seemed a vibe, now to find he's also like this
I should help him out, I empathize with all he's fighting
Can you pass the phone to him? (Hey, Twist)
Hey, Brian
First advice I got for you, write your feelings on a paper
Maybe that way you can see some of the thoughts have no place there
This won't be solved in one talk, that logic is mistaken
By the way, man, I'm sorry to hear about your break-up
As I was saying, this takes time and you could use another brain
Or opinions
Maybe a psychologist can save some of your state
But you gotta be the one to do it
And if needed, I'm one call away
I'll help you through this
But don't blame other people when you feel what you think
They can try to help but everyone is dealing with things
And they can take it personally like your ex-girl did
But try to look at the positives
You got a blessed soul, man
And it's okay not to know what to do
I feel your struggle, these days I am struggling too
You can balance your mind, and emotions too
You got a happy life ahead, it needs your best work, dude

Yeah, you need anything, just call me, bro, I'm here
Thanks man
No problem
Aight...
Aight man, see you later
See you, bro

I hope he gets better, man
And here I thought I was the only one