This Is Not What It Looks Like

You only see my madness
But don't see my methods
You don't see the offense
You only see me reckless
Cause and effect is the name of the game
Don't ask me why I stay in a rage
I ain't see my manager for months
Then I saw his obituary
Goddamn that's a whole lotta shit to carry
My heart sank when that shit hit the news
Now I walk around the industry
Bitter and confused
I'm still hurt from such a stunning loss
Keep wondering if I said something to run him off
My bitch mad cuz I ain't opening up
Said get a therapist
I saw ten, all of em' suck
What's the point for Black men
To go on the mend
Just to step outside
And get traumatized again
Same hood, same block
Same gang, same cops
Fuck this I'm tired
Y'all can all get shot
I got a lot of raw nerves
And a gun fetish to match
You get outta line
More than one head'll get cracked
Edit my raps never
I'm too gone
Any bond you had with the happier me
Well that's severed
Whatever
This is not what it looks like
This is not what it looks like
This is not what it looks like
Check ya eyesight fo' you tell me it doesn't look right
You see that bad bitch
But you ain't see her bills
Mykonos, Goyard
Goddamn bitch chill
She hit me up
Said she want that ass tapped again
Hoping I can fuck away pain from human trafficking
Now don't switch your focus
You ever seen tears of an angel
Mixed with coke dust
There's more war stories she's hoping to tell
I'll listen but I'm no help
I'm broken as well
See my sexual dysfunction
But you ain't see the sexual abuse
Wait hold up, I'm getting to my truth
You didn't see the cops
Hopping out on a nigga
But you will see my rage when I get into the booth
Maybe you should see me with a hand full of fury
Cuz I bet ya bottom dollar you won't see the grand jury
You won't see the body cam either
So don't press me when you see
So many goddamn heaters
Leave me alone
I reach out to the street with my poems
You can fuck with it or not nigga
To each his own
I know a few wanna see me dethroned
They won't see me coming
But you will see my feet to ya dome
Muthafucka
This is not what it looks like
This is not what it looks like
This is not what it looks like
Check ya eyesight fo' you tell me it doesn't look right