My Story

Around the time when I was 5 that's When we got to stepping
Ignorant to reality of what was really Happening
So confused and so concerned
About the truck we gassing
Why all my shit in the back, wrapped, so neatly packed in
Askin why we on this road so long?
And why we not home and chillin With the family no mo
And I cried
And I tried
To wipe away all the pain stuck Inside
But that's what happens when views Cruise and then collide
My momma wasn't happy
Blame not all on my daddy
She wasn't feeling the chemistry of His anata-my
But fuck him because that nigga rimy
Not living right, the shit stuck in the Dark
Quickly came to light
Now it's a fight if you in my sight, Put it on my life

Had to take a second to manifest it
My nerves is hectic
Heart is heavy And I still feel you Wrecked it
But it's a blessing
Don't think you ever steppin
Back to our life
And when you see how we living Look at your wife
Me and my sister won't miss you
I hope you cry at night
This shit been on my mind so I had To write
It down to free up my conscience
Translated like fonex
So much hate where my heart at
Hard to gauge how to gaurd it
So infused with this rage
But that's enough of that chapter
Turn the page theres more pain
That I ain't even master
So my heart getting blacker
But fuck it, this my story

Fast forward 2016
I'm still feeling that pain
Simple trials and tribulations, that Shit routine
But what had me jaded, was at my Graduation
Looking through all the familiar faces
And couldn't find the one
My cousin was fighting depression And the other side won
Now what's stuck in my head
Conversation we had
Back in 20-1-2
His ceremony was through
And what he told me he'd do
Was return the favor 4 years later
But the pain up inside him was Definitely greater
Not angry at him but I do miss em Badly
Lately I been struggling containing My anger flashes
Spark a wood, hope and pray I'm Shaking off all attachments
Not attacking the people close to me
I Don't want to self destruct cause I Know there's hope here for me
But some times it feel like someone Put a tight ass rope on me
And everytime I flench or move I feel That bitch choking me
And I'll only cope with weed
Cause it's come straight off the earth
Only time I'm out my mind is when I'm floating of the purp
That's because it take pain out my Brain when it hurt
And it keep me in my frame, Got me Tame not Bizerk
But it still doesn't matter
Cause my demons not tame
So infused with this rage
But that's enough of that chapter
Turn the page theres more pain
That I ain't even master
So my heart getting blacker
But fuck it, this my story