For Mephisto

This time I've gone far enough
I see only nothing
It seems like a never ending abyss
Struggling to find my strength
I crack open my sore eyelids enough
For light to leak in
And illuminate the infinite darkness
The light was coming from
Behind the seemingly endless
Collage of grey clouds over my head
I can see that beyond the clouds there was a
White silhouette in the origin of the light
Struggling to find me
Only succeeding enough to help me see that
Which was just below my feet
I look down at my toes gripping the edge
Of the ground where I was standing
Beyond that was nothing, a drop
A drop that seemed to lead
To yet another dim light
No telling what was really at the bottom
I was startled at first
Fearing I might fall into that unknown
How far was the drop? Would I
Die? Where would I end up?
A thousand questions race in my
Mind as I stared deep
In the massive hole in front of my eyes
Suddenly, like an abrupt epiphany
I decided I no longer cared to
Learn the answers to these questions
So what if I don't know the answers?
So what if I fall forever?
So what if I never come back!?
So what if I die!? So what if I die!?
So I leaned in, and I kept leaning
Until I felt my toes lose
Their grip on the surface i fell forever
I'm still falling still falling