I'm Not Depressed, My Life Is Just Sad

All the bad days, I've tried to convince myself
I'm overreacting but I
I've had my fill of medication
Maybe this is just the way it is
Waiting for the time for everything to make sense
Last time I knew happiness, it's been so many years since then
There's no way that you can say it's all inside my mind
Cause honestly sometimes I wanna leave it all behind
The hardships are much harder when you realize they're real
All my days stuck in a daze, reeling from all the feelings
Second guessing, maybe life is really not so bad
I need to be more patient but I
I've tried to see the silver lining
But my sky's are full of heavy grays
Dancing in the rain is easier to say than do
Painful realization of everything I'm going through
Reality is suffocating
There's no way that you can say it's all inside my mind
Cause honestly sometimes I wanna leave it all behind
The hardships are much harder when you realize they're real
All my days stuck in a daze, reeling from all the feelings
I'm not complaining, I know it truly could be so much worse
I've certainly been lucky but I
I'm missing some essential pieces
That's why I feel so incomplete
What exactly counts as a valid reason to feel lost
I'm ticking off my boxes as I'm
Fighting off the demons, they're all around, I can't give up
Please tell me you can see them