This Party Sucks

Can you take me home without making me feel like
If I'm all alone I've been some sort of failure
I don't need your reasons I can read your mind
But if I walk away with nothing gained
I'm still in pain
Is it even really my mistake if we cannot communicate
I'll try my best but it's okay if we don't get along
If I'm broken try to fix me
Here's to hoping you'll believe me
When I tell you there's nothing wrong with me
I'm under pressure, overthinking
Never growing, always shrinking
But it's okay
I don't even wanna be here
By your standards maybe I am underwhelming
But to someone else it's just a little different
Is it all that bad if I am disconnected
This society wants more of me
It's killing me
Even though I may feel like a child
Your need for me to change is wild
Your discomfort is all on you
It's really not my fault
If I'm broken try to fix me
Here's to hoping you'll believe me
When I tell you there's nothing wrong with me
I'm under pressure, overthinking
Never growing, always shrinking
But it's okay
I don't even wanna be here
I already feel inferior even if it's just a little fear
I mean everyone is different
So am I the one that's wrong
Come and meet me on my level
You can't even know the struggle
Maybe flawed but I just feel misunderstood
But if I'm broken try to fix me
Under pressure, overthinking
Daily fighting, always trying
Where the hell's the silver lining
I was fine but now I'm dying
All because you started crying
Figure it out, not your play date
Your distaste, I will not placate
But it's okay
I don't even wanna be here