Death

I'm fuckin' sick in the head, in my mental is dread
Health isn't the best, I really should've been dead
So the plan is instead I just live with regrets
With a hole in my heart and a weight on my chest

I am not the man you think you're looking at
I'm the man that makes me hate the man that's always looking back
Through the mirror it's no clearer, I can't see where I'll be at
It's like scrying through the ball, but it's only pitch black
What's up with that
Haunted all of my life, never had peace of mind
Always fighting with time, it seems I'm lagging behind
The same thing I despise, I turn into at night
Can't look in his eyes without picking a fight

I'm fuckin' sick in the head, in my mental is dread
Health isn't the best, I really should've been dead
So the plan is instead I just live with regrets
With a broken mind, suffering from things that you said

Stop, now let me talk for a minute
I got demons in my head, and they're fighting with the spirits
Never winning, never losing, watched the start but there's no finish
I am not a soldier in this war, a passerby, a witness
Bring me back to the place where I can say I'm living
So I can watch the happiness fade, cause that's a given
I have never been afraid of what happens when we're buried
Hell or heaven in between, none of that is really scary
I am more afraid of all the things that I have never thought
I am more afraid of all the shit I've known all along
I am more afraid of being found than ever being lost
I am more afraid of staying here forever, I am gone
Cause I'm

Fucking sick in the head, in my mental is dread
Health isn't the best, I really should've been dead
So the plan is instead I just live with regrets
With a hole in my heart and the things that you said