What About Me

I'm floating miles away, trying to keep my eyes awake
Trying to keep my mental state up, from where my demons lay
Trying not to die today, guess it's turning out okay
Things could be better, but better things are on the way
Stressing about the future, but the future's such a little thing
The present is a present that presents us opportunities
The world is before us, and it's full of all these mysteries
Just think about the life you live, and all its possibilities
Why are you afraid of heights? Why are you afraid of life
Why are you afraid that you might just turn out alright
Open up your wings and fly, let the peace release your mind
Let the love destroy the hate, and change the way you feel inside
The joy that you haven't seen, the dark that makes you feel weak
The feeling that you can't be free, the pain that comes and makes you weep
The nights that you can't fall asleep, if you think you dug too deep
You got to know just like the snow, it's here temporarily
Don't let the fear destroy your wants, tell the demons you're on top
Show them all that you're a god, and they can never make you stop
Never let your dreams get lost, always keep the better thoughts up
Close and personal, always keep them in the front
Whenever times get tough, when you think you've given up
When you say you've had enough, when you're losing all your love
You got to smile through the sadness, through the hurt and through the madness
Through the pain and through the gashes, repair your heart and then you're laughing, yeah
But what about me
But what about me
Yeah, yeah, yeah
See I'm not like you, I'm depressed as fuck
Hated every single day that I've ever woken up
Just because I'm Irish doesn't mean that I have any luck
A conduit conducting mad thoughts, cause I don't feel loved
I can't get a moment of peace, these thoughts betray me
Anytime I get real close, those people play me
Stressed about every part of life on the daily
Only chance I have to be alive is in my daydreams
I am just a product to be used to show anxiety
I am not a person, no emotions are inside of me
I am not a spirit, cause I don't know what I believe
Only thing I know for sure, we all will die eventually
I can never take my own advice, I don't believe myself
Trying so hard to help others get up out the hell
Trying so hard to reach out and give them all some help
At the same time I'm still struggling with all my doubts
Fixated on the problems, I can never find the answers
Always searching for solutions, but I end up going backwards
Never finding what I'm looking for, this search is a disaster
I'll lie and say I found some peace, then drown in sorrow after
Happiness I'll never find, I'll never live a stress free life
all that I can do is fight, never knowing what is right
When darkness covers up my eyes, when I decide that it's my time
When voices say it ends tonight, accept my fate I'll be alright
But what about me
But what about me