Letter To My Fans

Kells, to my fans hold me down mohfucka
And that's all I say

When that crowd leave will you stay for me?
(Uh)
And if I don't become what they thought I was
In the time I should and my hype dies
Would you wait for me?
Or be ashamed of me if I
Chose to bow out gracefully
'Cause I know if I don't wanna lose myself
Then Hollywood ain't no place for me (Nah)
What if I told you I ain't quit
And these drugs still was my rival (Uh)
Would you regret the fact that you sobered up
And had more heart than your idol (yeah)
Or accept the fact that I'm just human
Borderline suicidal (Bah)
And is it blasphemous that these two fingers
Mean more to me than my bible? (Wassup?)
Lord help cause I'm hell bound
With the weight of the world I'm held down
Feels like I'm in Hell now
Maybe that's why I'm havin' this meltdown
(Uh) maybe that's why I hate fame
Maybe that's why this J's lit
'Cause I speak the real and get criticized
So I inhale and don't say shit
(Pff) , and I wake up, to the same shit
Cameras on with their hands out
And that fake smile that I hate now
'Cause they the one say I sold out
They the one that will break out when
I needed food for my daughter (Damn)
And I'm the one who can't grow up
So these fans replace my father
And these girls replace my momma
They give me love
I don't take it, 'cause fuck love
These fucking hugs weren't around
Before I made it
And since I don't have no family
EST is all that I got (Wassup?)
Either drop me now or you down for life, man
It's EST or it's not

This shit ain't right (Uh)
'Cause whenever their wrong, oh
It's my fault (My fault, uh)
This is my life (My life) now tell me
Are you gon' ride 'till the wheels fall off?
(Wassup?) 'Till the nightmares done (Done)
'Till the grey hairs come (Come)
'Till the friendship disappears that we've
Had since day one
I said this is my life (My life, life)
So tell me, are you gon' ride 'till the
Wheels fall off? Off

Now, what if this is our climax?
What if everything peaks here?
What if we never get big and these
Days add on like leap year?
What if you were in my shoes? Do
You think you can fit 'em?
Or would put that gun to your fuckin' head
And regret the fact that you in 'em
'Cause this ain't living, this shit prison
Whatever you see in videos, this isn't
Whatever I thought I knew, shit I didn't
Dealing with the consequences of my decisions
Traded the life of a lonely child
That couldn't find anyone to get through
For a life that's filled with cameras
Critisize everytime that I move
For the love I got for my fans
And the loyalty for my mans
Equaled out to the shows we dreamed of
With them bodies pack to those stands
And I did what they say I can't
So I'm living proof that you can
Go be great, chase your dream
We only got one life and one chance

This shit ain't right (Uh)
'Cause whenever their wrong, oh
It's my fault (My fault, huh)
This is my life (My life) now tell me
Are you gon' ride 'till the wheels fall off?
(Wassup?) 'Till the nightmares done (Done)
'Till the grey hairs come (Come)
'Till the friendship disappears that we've
Had since day one
I said this is my life (My life, life)
So tell me, are you gon' ride 'till the
Wheels fall off? Off